Somedays I have to wonder why...

I'm sitting here thinking about it, and I have to wonder why, I have to question why I'm working so hard at this this time. I've heard so many people swear they where going to change, and I used to be just as bad as the rest of them; but somehow this time is differant, something about this time keeps pushing me forward, not letting me fail. I hope that this can continue, I hope that I can keep this up because I've never seen progress like this, this fast. I mean I've been lifting for four weeks, this being the fifth and I've hardly missed a day. There was last monday where I couldn't because I was feeling sick, but that's it, that's all, the rest I've been working my ass off with the only desire to continue going...

I was speaking with a friend of mine the other day, and he was kindly reminding me that what I've done has to be done from now on... now that I've made these changes its not going to be possible for me to go back. He brought up the example of what happens six months from now when I want a hamburger? It brings up an interesting question though, why would I want a hamburger? I don't miss it, I really don't crave it right now like so many people have sworn they do. I think it's weird, which is why he can't really grasp why I'd want to totally change my life like this. I mean really, how many people are honestly able to cross the line between being overweight and fit... the thought alone that I "could" be one of those people, one of the people that have defeated where so many people have failed, it commands a certain amount of respect. In fact I guess that is the only thing in this world which demands universal respect of everyone, the ability to control yourself and your surroundings enough to change. Change is a scary thing, and those who embrace it in such a forward thinking manner have my respect, that's for sure.