So, for all those of you who are wondering what's up and where I've been. I've pretty much taken the last two weeks off. I really didn't want to, but with the gym being closed I didn't really have a choice, than when it opened up again I started questioning whether it was really worth all the work. I know, no pain no gain, but really how much does someone really need to gain. I'm down 60 lbs off my highest, 45 in the past five months and I had to wonder why exactly I'm doing this. To say it was all for nothing would be a lie, I am happier now... I look forward to every day, but really I guess the question is how much better can it really get? If I where to say I'm doing this so that other people would like me, it would be quite shallow and lacking the full explanation, but it's not totally not true. But really, isn't that what looks are all about? I got news for anyone thinking that they're doing this they like to look better... you're wrong. You want to look better for the attention, that's all there really is to it. My main problem is that when people are looking at me, I can't help but wonder if they're just looking at what they see, or if they're really looking at me.
The resolution, I guess, it really doesn't matter. It was the second look that I needed anyway... needed for what is a whole other problem.
T.
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