So,
Here I stand with what is now less than one week away from my Six Month mark. In retrospect, the progress has been really good, as I'm currently looking at around 47 lbs lost in the past six months, and the remaining three to get to a good number coming in the next week. I'm now to the point that people cannot recognize me if they havn't seen me in a while, I get double ID'd every where including the gym where I go twice a day because they just don't believe it's me.
I think above all else, and beyond everything else I've learnt to have a healthy respect for myself. Not in the I'm better than you way, but more in the way that I spent so long talking about in earlier posts. Like I said than, there is a certain respect that is demanded from someone who can do what I've done, and what I am about to do and that is one of the few true respects left in this world. I have seen a huge differance in my personal life however, both for the good and the bad. The self confidence to stand up for myself helps a lot, but I think above all the thought that I know I do not have to rely on others to make myself feel wanted anymore. Obviously a bit of an over exageration, but I'm much happier alone now than I was before, whether that be my failed attempt at love 6 months ago that I'm sure somehow spured this, or my utter lack of desire for it all right now. I am however seeing my friends complaining that I'm not the same person I was before, that they never get to see me because I'm always in the gym, and that they miss hanging out with me... I guess that's both a good and a bad thing really, good in the sense that when you miss something you appreciate the time you have with it when you do manage to have it, and bad in the sense that I am on some levels neglecting them for once to better myself.
The future, where do we go from here. There are a couple of options on my plate right now, I mean, I could take the next month off and than start all over again... although this may not be the best plan because i don't think I could go back to the way I was before (thankfully) and it would undo a lot of the work I've done. Looking forward I think the best thing to do would be to continue to march forward with my head held high; and if I managed to do 50 lbs in six months, maybe I can do the full 100 in a year. 100 lbs, that would bring me down to 240 and make me oddly still overweight according to the BMI (that's Ironic, because I'd be the most fit person I've ever met). I did always say that my only goal was to hit 260 - 270 but now that I'm on the cusp of that, and only 10 pounds away from the greater I have to wonder if I shouldn't push further. You know, drop all the way down to 240 and than start to build up the rest in muscle... Sadly however, the only reason I really want this is to say I am the guy that lost 100 lbs in a year. That's a big number... hell that's some full grown adults.
Well, although I will not be able to post on my six month mark, I will be here in spirit (and shortly after I return from the camping trip). It's been one hell of a journey, and right now I think we're only part way home...
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